These weeks i've been not much active here because of the usual stuff, plus still struggling with art block and the tendency of not being able to do anything (not even play videogames whenever i want in the day). Sometimes i favourite one or two things and review them as i please, but besides this it's all nothing at all.

So there's some things i've been getting into during this near end month period:

• I officially have been getting into Hatsune Miku way more than i thought. I've been playing a lot of Project Mirai DX (the Nintendo 3DS spinoff of Project Diva) since months back when i wanted to learn a rhythm game, but got suddenly fascinated by her figure, but actually being a standard anime/manga art / japanese videogame lover means a lot, so i've been trying out FL Studio with Piapro Studio.
• I'm learning Blender (yes, it's the highlight of the article). Reason is, YES, i also want to eventually try out creating anime statues/figures because i don't even really know what to do anymore. My deep conscious is telling me to keep on insisting about doing this stuff for a while, and might probably use my current drawing knowledge to be able to plan out models easier than just do all from scratch without a self-made reference.

I stopped watching a lot of Twitch as i'm attempting to shift my focus on my hobbies and talking with others for a bit...

The bad news? Still feeling rough and mindly weak just as before. Despite writing down ideas i've been brainstorming on drawings i want to make, my anxiety for not being able to hold on reaching my objective and instead relying on my expectations is what prevents me to do that. I really want to do game dev as well, but well, thing is that my weak mind is making me so lazy... i want to get out from it.

Not to mention that recently i've been feeling awkward at the way i write with other people, especially on Discord. Sometimes i write stuff that doesn't make sense while i'm trying to make it feel like authentical phrasing, but apparently, not just my english is that bad enough, but also i tend to be quite dyslexical with my main language (italian) as well...

Yeah, it just feels normal to me that unfortunately it's just the way how i write and talk. I am so grungy.