Still alive and kicking, and better than ever. Last year i was really focused on art studying and now here am i, while it's summer and shit's getting slippery.

I started a Cara profile a while ago, so now my doodles and art go there and here.

https://cara.app/af2050

I'll be trying to start again and keep it up. I'll be back cooking some art for Newgroundites like you.

The real reason i had left Twitter is because the Elon Musk craze had been putting on my nerves a lot, but this nerving out will not last this much so easily. I have to accept the existence and move on.

I am no longer updating my Twitter.

IT'S FINALLY HERE AFTER 5 YEARS

I'M LITERALLY IN JOY

(besides ignore the wires)

• Find a better and more cleaner sketching workflow
• Learn digital painting the way it sohuld have been / proper idea of how to use structure to paint values, light and color
• Draw more shit doodles without blowing a crap about how i draw hands like leeks without proper idea from references

These weeks i've been not much active here because of the usual stuff, plus still struggling with art block and the tendency of not being able to do anything (not even play videogames whenever i want in the day). Sometimes i favourite one or two things and review them as i please, but besides this it's all nothing at all.

So there's some things i've been getting into during this near end month period:

• I officially have been getting into Hatsune Miku way more than i thought. I've been playing a lot of Project Mirai DX (the Nintendo 3DS spinoff of Project Diva) since months back when i wanted to learn a rhythm game, but got suddenly fascinated by her figure, but actually being a standard anime/manga art / japanese videogame lover means a lot, so i've been trying out FL Studio with Piapro Studio.
• I'm learning Blender (yes, it's the highlight of the article). Reason is, YES, i also want to eventually try out creating anime statues/figures because i don't even really know what to do anymore. My deep conscious is telling me to keep on insisting about doing this stuff for a while, and might probably use my current drawing knowledge to be able to plan out models easier than just do all from scratch without a self-made reference.

I stopped watching a lot of Twitch as i'm attempting to shift my focus on my hobbies and talking with others for a bit...

The bad news? Still feeling rough and mindly weak just as before. Despite writing down ideas i've been brainstorming on drawings i want to make, my anxiety for not being able to hold on reaching my objective and instead relying on my expectations is what prevents me to do that. I really want to do game dev as well, but well, thing is that my weak mind is making me so lazy... i want to get out from it.

Not to mention that recently i've been feeling awkward at the way i write with other people, especially on Discord. Sometimes i write stuff that doesn't make sense while i'm trying to make it feel like authentical phrasing, but apparently, not just my english is that bad enough, but also i tend to be quite dyslexical with my main language (italian) as well...

Yeah, it just feels normal to me that unfortunately it's just the way how i write and talk. I am so grungy.

I made a Twitter acc but it's only going to be an art and lurk account in the meantime cause honestly it's not even a primary platform for posting art at all just like every account i use in other sites to post art.

https://twitter.com/af2050_art

Will have NSFW in it too when it comes

If you want to find my art elsewhere i've just made a Pixiv and ArtStation account some time ago. After finishing my art today i felt like i'm a bit ready to take off to other worlds so i should start publicizing them.

ArtStation (due to being a safer platform and more strict sensitive content some drawings will not go there, but softer nsfw artwork such as nudity will go there) || Pixiv (R-18 content is totally allowed there)

Aight, i'm gonna say being welcomed at open arms in this website has me get so happy. More than every other site i used to post on to get enough attention.

I began my seeking for attention on Twitter, but after many months of desperate doodle sketching, i felt like i wasted too much time posting too much that i only got 3-5 followers. Twitter's so full of japanese artists but also some artists who also have a profile here. When i left it after getting a living on Mastodon, i treated Twitter that it's not even the thing for me anymore, even because algorithms and shit kind of ruined my expectations to get my first public to interact with me.

But what was also bad is that people told me there's a bunch of toxic people here. Yes, two reasons got me enough (or also one) to NOT use Twitter anymore.

But when i entered here on Newgrounds, i had got more active than the time i was registered back on October of the last year, except i got active for real when i left Twitter and Instagram behind. I cannot comprehend why do Twitter artists get so many numbers, but i'd better stick out of it while i'm having more fun residing on this place.

Also love the unique features that make what could be the most innovative website design i've ever seen in history. The games, movies, audio and art portals, the very simple BBS styled forums, profile level and whistles... it's what makes this site so awesome i ain't ever going to stop using it for a longer while. It's a very great way to get people interact with others unlike how Twitter and Instagram bug off a lot spamming their emails and notifications with FOMO tendencies. Mastodon was good enough, but this place is godsent.

Other art sites i may want to use in the future is Artstation and Pixiv. I'm never going to deal with lousy ass algorithms anymore.

Seeing japanese artists draw on Twitter / Pixiv always has me wonder how they manage to draw very dynamic poses and shapes. But the thing i'll never get so easily is HOW they could do it by hand with a reference or not.

I've always had this doubt for years and i still do, so despite the fact i want to try to destroy this usual habit of trying to draw things without reference, i instead keep on doing things the wrong way just as usual.

Damn it. Help.